Thursday, May 29, 2008

To Be Lonely

God: "What's the matter?
Me: "I'm lonely!"

God: "I know! Don't you think I know that?"
Me: "Yes Lord."

God: "Then what's the problem?"
Me: "I'm lonely."

God: "What do you want?"
Me: (Repressing the honest answer I speak:) "I want what you want Lord."

God: "You have it."
Me: (dead silence)

God: "Something is still bothering you. What is it?"
Me: "I'm alone."

God: "Why is that a problem?"
Me: "I'm not happy."

God: "And why not?"
Me: "I don't want to be alone."

God: "You said you wanted what I wanted."
Me: "Yes Lord."

God: "You have it."
Me: (silence)

God: "Isn't that what you wanted?"
Me: (at last honesty) "No Lord."

God: "Then you do not want what I want?"
Me: "I do, but I also want to feel loved. I also want what I want."
God: "The problem is not your desire to feel and be loved. That is a good desire.
The problem is that you expect that I should give you
what you want when you want and how you want.
If a sparrow does not fall without my knowledge...
If I dress the lilies in such splendor...
If I clothe the grass of the field which so quickly withers...
Do you imagine I have forgotten beloved?
I have not forgotten not worry.

God: "You are still troubled...why?"
Me: "I'm lonely."
God: (gently) "I know."

That was written by Hudson Russell Davis. I changed it around a bit, but how much does that describe you and me at times in our lives? Whether you're young and you have a desire to date and feel loved; whether you're older and have a desire to be married; whether you feel like you have no one to turn to; whether your parents have abandoned you; whatever the case, this describes almost all of us so well. I thought it was a touching "conversation" that this man wrote up and I wanted to share it.

1 comment:

Emily said...

wow. that is sooooo very true in my life right now.