Tuesday, September 1, 2009

My Mission is Home

Could I want a good thing so much, yet find out that it's not a God thing? I think that I know the answer to that question that has been swirling around through my mind lately.

Chuuk and the people of it have continually been on my heart. I feel as though I would go back in a heartbeat ~ and give up any of my "material comforts" here in America to go back and spend time with those people and those children again.

Saying good-bye was one of the hardest parts of the entire trip...

And looking back at the pictures, at the memories, at the seashells that the children gave to me when we played on the beach, at the necklace that Mahlie gave me, at the smiles on the kids' faces... Looking back at all of that seems to be even harder than saying good-bye.

However, God has been teaching me that through all of this I could easily become selfish. If it were up to me, I would go back to Chuuk in a heartbeat!

However, God obviously wants me here for a reason... right here and right now! I shouldn't question the Will of God or sit back and wait until it all makes sense. I shouldn't question the ways of my Sovereign God. And I should not wish that I was somewhere else than where God wants me now. And obviously, right now, my mission is home.

I can be thankful for the opportunity that He gave me and I can thank Him for the time that He gave me with the children in Chuuk.

And I can be thankful for where He has me right now. I can use this passion that He has placed in my heart for the place that He has me in right now.

Maybe He wants me to go back or maybe He wants me somewhere else. Right now I know that He wants me here. And it is my prayer that I come to accept wholeheartedly and with joy every part of His Plan for my life!

Lead me to the cross,
Where Your love poured out
And bring me to my knees,
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself, I belong to You
Oh, lead me to Your heart
~Lead Me to the Cross


emily said...

Hey molly.. I love these last two posts. And they have totally brought me back to my trip! I know how hard this is and I know what it's like to let go. Just know that somewhere out there right now Luanne and Mahlie (?) and my little spaceship boy are all being taken care of by the one and only Creator of the world. He loves them even more than we do and while it hurts and sches to not be with them.. This is where He wants us. Keep that passion and that desire to take your faith deeper and to trust blindly that He knows what He is doing. I am so glad we have been able to go through this together! Love you ~Emily K

Lindsey said...

Molly, this is something i have been thinking about too! I know exactly what you mean, it is hard, but i also need to do what i can right where i am. Be His servant and follower here at home just as much as i was in Chuuk.
Love you! Lindsey.