Anger

Wellll let's just say that I didn't have a very good day today. I think I woke up around 9:30. Then I did something for my mom and sister and then read my Proverbs. Then I did a couple things. And okay, here comes the sad/stupid/shameful part... I got so angry - SO ANGRY - because things weren't going right for me. I got so furious because I was unorganized and I seriously couldn't take it anymore. I think I had the kind of anger that Jesus talks about in Matthew 5:21-22, "You have heard that it was said to the people long ago, 'Do not murder, and anyone who murders will be subject to judgment.' But I tell you that anyone who is angry with his brother will be subject to judgment." Jesus compared anger to murder! And as angry as I was today, I think you could call it a murderous anger. I hate to admit that, I really do. I haven't gotten that angry for a long time. My patience has been being tested so much lately and today I just bursted over a stupid thing.

Ephesians 4:31 says, "Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice." I'm working on it. And I asked God to calm me down, and I was calmed down. Then my flesh took over and I got real angry AGAIN.

I was so busy today, and whenever I would try to sit down and just get on the internet, I would have to do something else. Then I had to leave. I was just so stressed out today. But then my Grandma called and said that my aunt Deanna had her baby! She had a little baby boy! He is soo adorable!! His name is Noah. I love babies. My aunt is doing great right now. Thanks to all of you who have been praying for her! Please keep praying that she will continue to have a good recovery.

"Take You Back"
by Jeremy Camp

The reason why I stand
The answer lies in You
You hung to make me strong
Though my praise was few

When I fall I bring Your Name down
But I have found in You
A heart that bleeds forgiveness
Replacing all these thoughts of
Painful memories
But I know that
Your response will always be

"I'll take you back.
Always.
Even when your fight is over now,
Even when your fight is over now,
I'll take you back.
Always.
Even when the pain is coming through,
Even when the pain is coming through,
I'll take you back."

You satisfy this cry
Of what I'm lookin' for
And I'll take all I can
And lay it down before
The throne of endless grace now
That radiates what's true
I'm in the only place that
Erases all these faults that
Have overtaken me
But I know that
Your response will always be,

"I'll take you back
Always.
Even when your fight is over now,
Even when your fight is over now,
I'll take you back.
Always.
Even when the pain is coming through,
Even when the pain is coming through,
I'll take you back."

I can only speak with a grateful heart,
As I'm pierced by this gift of Your love.
I will always bring an offering.
I can never thank You enough.

You take me back,
Always.
Even when my fight is over now,
Even when my fight is over now,
You take me back.
Always.
Even when my pain is coming through,
Even when my pain is coming through,
You take me back.
Always.
Even when my fight is over now,
Even when my fight is over now,
You take me back.
Always.
Even when my pain is coming through,
Even when my pain is coming through,
You take me back.